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Me either, I liked it. Thanks for sharing, never heard of this composer.

I have actually listened to it and left a comment. Don't feel obliged to reciprocate.

"emotional" content is merely one element out of a large number of qualities that a piece can have, a good work needs to have more to it than that. The linked piece is full of stereotyped gestures, textures and harmonies.

No thread in YC can be considered as complete without some kind of allusion at pedophilia. :huh: ... But there's something real about that feeling - a composer is sharing some of his spiritual intimacy and placing it before an audience. Luckily, music always retains some mysterious quality that allows for a composer to voice his own secrets through it without fear that they can be fully understood. As long as a composer remains true to himself, there's no way that his works can be considered as 'empty'.

Well, putting such a private side of yourself out there is humiliating, regardless of how satisfied you are with the composition. On premiering one of his symphonies Wilhelm Furtwängler commented that he felt like a little girl undressing in a room full of perverts.

I don't think this is an uncommon issue for composers. I suffer from this feeling too. However, pate (if I may shorten it thus) is right. You are incredibly fortunate to be ably to get your work recorded. Use this opportunity to continue to develop and don't ever stop developing. Not everything you compose has to be brilliant. Think of each piece you write as an exercise. You are strengthening your ability to compose with each piece you write. Also, don't let composition become a burden. The more you feel pressured to compose a certain way to a certain standard, the less likely you will be to produce something you love. While you should definitely hold yourself to a general standard of quality, it's easy to become disillusioned with it if you're constantly undermining yourself mentally. Sometimes, I listen to the first music I ever wrote and think how much more I love it than what I'm composing now. It's because I wasn't yet weighed down by comparing myself to others and thinking about whether it's going to be perfect or brilliant. You can hear the difference in the music. And don't ever feel humiliated. Perhaps the word he (version782) was searching for was humbled. It does take humility to become great. Expecting every piece to become a great one and being upset when it doesn't turn out that way is not humble at all and will only make you miserable.

You have someone who would like to record your work in a studio and this is what you are worried about? (: First, so many people would love the opportunity to have their work recorded, but can't do it, so you should. Even if you aren't totally happy with the work. Second, don't worry about being totally happy with it, just finish it, and move on to the next one. That is how you grow. No one's early work is very good. Finish one piece so you can get on to the next piece, which will be slightly better. The next will be slightly better than that… Don't worry about it, just stay sitting in the chair until you have made something. The key to getting better is to make LOTS of work. No one makes one perfect piece. You make LOTS of pieces, and the good ones will be played and remembered, and the bad ones will be forgotten. History will sort out the good ones from the bad, but you need to keep writing so you can keep growing. And if you finish pieces, you can get them out into the world and get some feedback that will help you keep growing. Just keep going. Don't worry about it being perfect.