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I don't think there's any right or wrong here. Maybe some of us listen to our own music because we wrote something we love and we're proud of it. Maybe it's to listen critically to know what to do better in the future. Maybe everyone else was doing it wrong so we arranged the notes how we most like them and listen to it for that reason. I wouldn't say you're narcissistic for listening to your own music over and over again. I'm sure painters decorate their homes with their artwork, and ex-athletes line the walls with their trophies and medals. But me personally, I cringe at listening to my own stuff. All I can hear are the flaws, the mistakes, the wrong tones, etc. Maybe I go back to it once in a while after months or years apart from it, but rarely. So why do I even write? lol I guess it's something like what Picasso said: If they took away all my paints, I'd use pastels, if they took away my pastels, I'd use crayons, if they took away my crayons, I'd use a pencil. If they put me in a cell, and stripped me of everything, I'd spit on my finger and draw on the wall.

I don't see why unless it applies to all creativity. Besides "narcissism" has a popular definition as well as one originally defined in (IIRC) DSM3 as a diagnosable disorder. What is narcissism after all? Is there anything wrong with it. Is pride narcissistic? Is satisfaction with ones accomplishments narcissistic? Is plain self-expression narcissism? Too often when I listen to my own works I sense I suffer from nastycism. I've written one or two that stand out (to me) and stuff following in their wake sounds mediocre. It's about self expression. (Edit: that's why stuff I write usually gets classified as impressionism). Should I expect others to attend to my self-expression? Answer: really it's no, as an expectation but it's there if someone wants it. I tend to regard ALL entertainment as an arrogance.) Trouble is, to differentiate ourselves from others and the environment we have to self express. Semiotics would suggest the way we dress, the way we approach discussion, the things we like and dislike - they're all signs we give off. To me narcissism is more of a reflection as per tradition. If you pause to look into every mirror you pass to admire yourself; if you love photos of yourself and throw away those that don't meet your self-defined standards, if you expect people to laahhve you - then you're narcissistic.

That's the most important thing. If you feel you are improving and refining, you don't need to really care about other people comments. I am sorry that I have not listened to your previous nocturnes, but I am sure I will listen to them and compare them with this one. Yeah that's only my opinion. Personally I think it is really important to keep the flow moving (or rather, controlling time like a magician), but obviously it is not THE standard. Personally I think the term "tranquillo" does not fit into the return of the opening material because of the context. I really adore you for that! I wish my piece can have comments too(haha!!)(Just kidding!)