HUH? Wonder less, compose more!!!! Okno. But honestly I never think of my own creativity nor I think about my compositions on those terms.
In all honesty, I have always composed for myself. Publishing my work is something I have hardly ever done up to very recently, in fact I do it because someone found an old waltz of mine and made me a donation a year ago, so that made me think "well perhaps someone apart from myself can enjoy this". However, the fact my objective public is myself doesn't mean I like all my pieces, I do find specific flaws on them just like that guy John Williams (is he famous or something?) and Left Unexplained said.
I don't know what writing music is about or should be about. I just write it because yes. But I do try to find my limits and push them further in some pieces, sometimes unwillingly at the beginning.
I honestly don't know what happens in your brain when you hear your music over and over.
Hmmm.
1st: I look at the paper or the PC.
2nd: If I have an idea that I previously played or imagined, I try to write it. I sometimes use taptempo.io to check around which bpm my idea can be written. In the past, if I didn't have an idea, the process stopped here till something came to mind. Now, I FORCE my brain and get the idea.
3rd: I compose.
4th: I listen to what I compose, via digital interpretation or via playing the key sections, chords, notes, whatever, myself. If I feel it's not enough, back to 3rd step.
5th: I put the paper in musescore (in case it wasn't directly written there) and properly engrave it.
6th: I click on export in PDF format and mp3 format, sit back, and enjoy or get disappointed, or anything in the middle.
This is my approach :).
Depends of the piece. Don't know how much it's too much. I lately seek for other composers to listen to anyways. This forum, free-scores and youtube in that order are my primary sources of new music.
Kind regards!