Hi! I am a newcomer to this forum. It's really fascinating to see many young composers sharing their pieces here. I guess if I would have the right to be called a composer at all, so I would like to present a piece I recently finish here.
For me this piece is about despair and meaning, and their dialectic relationship. It's in c minor in all four movements to present the gravity of sadness, especially in our time. It's in a four movement structure, and here is the brief synopsis:
00:05 First Movement: Allegro ma non troppo Modified Sonata Form .One is despair to find the meaninglessness of existence. One would like to find a dream to flee but fail. One is defeated by the despair.
21:06 Second Movement: Scherzo: Presto, Sonata Form. Defeated, one starts to free the self to crazy thoughts, though still reasonably (with its tonal structure ). After this one instead finds moment of calmness.
30:27 Third Movement: Adagio Meastoso - Fugue: Andante ma non troppo. One starts to dwell into the root of despair. One uses different kinds of approach and finally finds something hopeful. But despair soon arises, and hope defeated is worse than hope never appeared. One ends in utter sadness but finally knows the root of it.
45:40 Fourth Movement: Allegro con moto . Sonata Form/Sonata-Rondo. Seemingly to know the root of despair, one pretends to be free of it, although the nightmare keeps reminding the one its presence. After the combat between despair and meaning, one finally knows that without despair there won't be meaning at all, therefore accepting the despair and ends in tranquility. It ends with Beethoven Op.135 since it perfectly fits here, and it is one of my favourite piece, if not the most (The other being his op. 131).
It seems like a long piece but I just cannot stop it. I have too many things to tell. I really would like to know whether this piece worth other's attention or not, so I would be extremely grateful to have other comments, whether it's positive or negative.
Update on 20/02/2023: Structural Plan of the Third Movement added:
Mov 3 Structural Plan.pdf