i think generally the emotion, mood or vibe is something i feel before writing, as well as during. After it’s done, i think i’ve overdosed on that particular feeling for a while so i tend to be largely desensitized to whatever i was trying to convey until time elapses.
I’m not sure if i enjoy the creative process per se, but i feel as if it would be a kind of tragedy if i didn’t complete the work, so the sense of purpose or mission is definitely there to get me through it (so far in my composing “career”, emphasis on the quotations.)
The thing that I love about it is that, after it’s done, i know that i’ve expressed myself, that being, in all things music and non-music, my reason for living.