Onno, it could be that I'm going off to college in about a week and half way across the continent, not able to see my family and completely leave this place behind... and my audition music is freakin Hindemith Symphonic Metamorphases, which is a bit difficult. I'm sure once I get to school, I'll be bursting with new ideas. Thanks everyone for your help!
Tuohey, that's what I usually do, and I have been getting better, I've worked under fast deadlines enough to not wait for a burst of inspiration, but this time's different, I'm not quite waiting as much as my mind is at a complete blank. It's always easy once you get past that intimidating score of empty staves, once I get past, it inspires itself, it's just that I can't seem to start. This time, instead of having nothing to say and nothing to write, I have an urge to say something, but I have nothing i can write down.
ken320, I just bought an oboe, I have no money! and I'm buying college now, I'll never have money until I'm 40! But I've been looking for ways to save up for a good sequencer, and I have been playing with some online apps, but I'm not exactly an electronic composer, this piece is for the Alexandria Symphony Orchestra.
Thanks a lot everyone! I hope this proves to be useful for anyone else who finds themselves in this situation, you all have some great advice, and it helps to be reassured that my career as a composer won't end at the age of 18 :P