in the interest of mending fences, I'll go ahead and tell you the story. A close friend of mine with cerebral palsey has been fighting damage to his kidneys and liver, he needs a transplant, but he keeps spiraling downward into depression. this piece was in many ways a coping tool for dealing with his worsening state.
i have clinical depression, and i do fight, and i stay on top, but some who have it don't fight, don't seek help, and frequently don't survive, but I do understand where you were coming from now and hope we're still on neutral terms.