My aspiration to study music came a little late in my high school career, and studying composition came even later. There is no music theory course at my school. Everything I know, I learned through independent study (my theory isn't actually that bad). When I read the audition requirements for colleges, and having to submit original compositions, and some that even ask for live recordings.
So I don't really know what to do. My compositions aren't that great, and I don't think I'm good enough for a performance major. Am I at a disadvantage (discovering this late, never being able to afford a private teacher or formal training), or did many people also discover themselves in this position in their senior year in school?