Thanks J. Lee :) No, unfortunately I have not had any formal music education as of yet... I just started going to college full-time this semester (I was just going part-time and working full-time), so I hope to take the music theory class at my college in the fall semester. Any progress I have made is from trial and error based on YC critique and reading wiki articles here and wikipedia. I actually don't recall you being overly harsh toward me as a beginner, and if you were it must have been constructive because I've never had "ill-will" :P haha. I always appreciate criticism as long it can be useful to me in future pieces (I tend to use criticism here for past screw ups more to aid future pieces which I credit for my improvement).
I'm glad you caught the meaning of the title... I usually post the translation but forgot to this time. Yes, this piece was intended to sound as a mix of emotions that do not get along or agree with each other. (In case you are wondering, I am not fluent in Japanese... wish I was!... I use Japanese titles because my music takes a lot of influence from Japanese or Asian music.)
I put both parts on the same line because they are supposed to play in unison when there is not a "part two". For some reason I think it makes for a neater score to do it that way because they play in unison for about half of the piece. I definitely do not claim to be an expert on scores tho ;) lol
Measure 18, the oboe part was supposed to be an echo of the flute part in the measure before... nothing in the piece was really intended to "resolve" which is why I gave it the title... it is supposed to be weird, I don't think anything I write will even be conventional :)
I will have to try your drink creation... I love Sake :)