Rubato possibly overdone?

I wrote this about 3 or 4 years ago, I don't remember exactly,
and I re-recorded it, because I noticed that my old recording had a wrong note (wrong rhythm) in the recording,
although there are a few places in this where I overdo the rubato and because of this sometimes it sounds almost like wrong rhythm,
but I almost never write tempo markings or really anything performing-instructional(?) texts into my sheet musics
because I want to give the freedom and the puzzle to solve to the performer,
because in my opinion, most music has multiple performing solution,
so here is the video:

What do you think about the rubato? Do you also think I overdo it?

Thank you for your help,
have a nice day Everybody!

wow I love those little chords in the last 1/3! and the ending. Very inventive and cool!

i think it's fine. This pieces with emotional intention need rubato.

Yes, it's clear that in the score there is little information regarding dynamics and pedals. It all depends on what you want...

@Left Unexplained Thank you! 🙂 Really, you think they are inventive? I didn't think about them like that, but I'm happy if you find them interesting.
Maybe they really sound kind of inventive compared to the not really inventive first 2/3 part. I guess it looks like they make good contrast then 🙂

@Luis Hernández Thank you for your thoughts! I think you are right, I almost never write any pedal symbols in my piano music, because I always see multiple different correct sounding solutions (at least they both sound correct to me), so I just don't write anything there, because I also don't want to feed the strictness what I experienced through my music high school and music university years, many of the teachers there were very strict about how exactly we should follow all the symbols and instructions in the sheet music, and I just can't agree with that too much, because it sucks out most of the creative part of performance, and that's bad for creative performers. I think without a lot of freedom in the sheet music, performing it will be just a task, without any serious decision making, and without any opportunity to decide between stuff, there is no place left for creativity.

@Lotsy piano .  That's indeterminacy! Even Bach didn't write any tempo marks.

I think it's OK the way you do it.

@Luis Hernández I was thinking a little bit, and I think I write very little instructions/symbols in my sheet music, because I got used to that when I was an organist (on paper I'm still am, but I don't play, because I moved to a place to marry where there is no organs or churches and nobody cares about organ, so I "stuck" with piano 😄 but actually I like piano about the same as organ, so I'm lucky that this little switch was never a serious problem for me, although I can't play the piano that well, my playing is especially bad in this Etude video, very imprecise, I can't get used to my digital piano's keys, it's weighted but it feels weird when I have to play something fast, I feel like my fingers are moving in the empty air or something, unfortunately at the moment I don't have the money to buy a grand piano not even a pianino, but probably I don't really need that too, I don't want to be a concert pianist, just a piano-composer, so I guess I have everything I need now  little bit, with this digital piano 🙂 )

4 hours ago, Lotsy piano said:

@Left Unexplained Thank you! 🙂 Really, you think they are inventive? I didn't think about them like that, but I'm happy if you find them interesting.
Maybe they really sound kind of inventive compared to the not really inventive first 2/3 part. I guess it looks like they make good contrast then 🙂

 

well I'm kind of a beginner so its not tooo hard to blow my mind ;)

@Left Unexplained I think in a way we all are beginners, we all have things to learn, I came here to learn too, so don't worry about a thing :)

Actually I have the same experience if something is new to me, even if it's not really something special (and I guess that's the way for everyone).
There is a saying(?) in my native language that in English would sound something like this: "Every joke is new joke to a new born baby."

I guess we all are here to hear new jokes, and that's the fun part of whole forum too :)